Well, here I am again, back at it. It has been awhile - maybe even a little bit more than awhile at this point but it is time again. I can just tell, the last few weeks I keep thinking (yes, I think!) I really should be keeping track of all of this, or man that would be a funny story. So after some debate and review of my old blog, here we are at the beginning again, ready to chit chat and share my everyday crazy take on the world and the weirdness it has to offer me in this life. I am not sure that this random blog could ever be as exciting and out there as my chronicles of Paris but I am damn sure going to try and keep it that way. Even though I am not in Paris any more and I have settled back to a semi-normal life here in the good-ole US of, things haven't necessarily settled down for me. There is so much that has happened in the last 5 months now that I am thinking back on it all, I am not sure where to even start... So I guess a rundown is in order. I moved back in June and went to the happy little countryside in NH, thinking yup, I can totally move back in with Ma and Pa, no problem at all, I can handle this, to be totally wrong. I found myself driving here there and everywhere just to keep myself busy and to fill my unemployed time. Speaking of unemployment, it is not something I would recommend to anyone BUT if you have to go through it, summer time is key. So keep that in mind if you have any say what so ever when laying people off. There really isn't much to complain about when there is a pool in the backyard and the sun is out almost every day. I accepted a job that I knew deep down I didn't want so I then declined the same job. Also not something I recommend to anyone, this is one of the worst feelings in the world. It is not fun and I felt like a big giant piece of ______________ <insert some awful word here. When they say listen to your gut, they mean it. That grumbly, squishy food processing center really knows what it is doing. There was a Burgerfest reunion which was an awesome time for all, I love my college friends, they are a whole new level of extended family, I have been truly blessed to have them in my life, although there were two incredibly important people missing. One being Jane, who passed on last August, I think this weekend and even leading up to it made me realize that it was all real. Being across an ocean really had allowed me to sort of loss over some of those emotions, well because at the time it was just easier. The second being someone who I will forever love more than life but just couldn't be there, we maybe going in separate directions but I still don't let a moment pass without thinking about him. So although there were some gaps, we managed to fill that weekend with so much laughing and drinking that I think we represented ourselves as well rounded adults who still know how to come together and make it happen. I visited my Partner in Crime and her amazing kiddos in Chicago, which was just amazing. Not only have I wanted to see that damn mirrored bean for a LONG time, I miss that silly Asian and her spawn (I mean children...hehe) more than anything. We rocked that city, zoo, pier, bean and double decker busses. I am pretty sure Annee and I are some sort of weird soul mates. I attended unemployment classes, visited family, helped Britt and her boyfriend move from one snowy cold place to another, at least this one is within a reasonable driving distance, finally found a job that I think is just right for me (and I work with some of the most caring people I have ever met in my life), moved back to Mass, visited the olden day at Sturbridge Village with two crazy gals that always make me laugh and I have missed Paris and my family there dearly every day since I came back. I also have realized how hard it is to stay in touch, I have always known that I sort of suck at this but man oh man it managing time differences, schedules, unemployment and then employment make it hard to keep those who mean the most to you in touch on a regular basis. And that my dear friends is just a quick run down. Trust the nitty gritty details are just way to much for a recap of the last few months.
Being in Paris and away from my life here made me realize many things, one of which being I don't really have it all figured out because each and every day a new challenge will be tossed out there. Some are small and trivial and some are seriously life changing. But it also made me realize that I can handle any of those things because deep down I have to make me happy and even though how to do that maybe a mystery at times, it is the most important thing someone can do for themselves.
So... here is to a new chapter, a new beginning, the next page, another challenge and endless adventures... bring it on life, I am going to try like hell to handle you... and all the while I am going to write about how exactly I am trying to do that!
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